"Dear Diary, Session over 9000"

So that was not how I was expecting my reunion with the caravan to go. Nor was I expecting that was how my reunion with Navra to go (stupid Xavvry all talking about how we might never see any of them again…)

First things first. Zatina has (or had) a magic mirror that makes you relive your worst nightmares and past experiences….yaaaayyyy (that was totally sarcastic fyi-the excitement, not the mirror). I went through a ballroom waltz that wasn’t really a waltz and learned that I never want to waltz again. It was bad enough the first time. Wasn’t any better the second time no matter how much medaphor it was wrapped in. Even though I feel I’ve gotten to a place of acceptance over my past it doesn’t mean that I want to relive it over and over again.

After the mirror there was the Evening Glory. Poor Tony….I would like to hope he’s ok, but if Wolfram made it through my cynical side says it wouldn’t be likely. I think what bothers me most is the fact that he may have been up there, dying, not wanting to give up hope that we would come for him. Then we never did. I know that we had to flee, that there is no way for us to face Wolfram on our own. I hope he understood that we had to go to try to save everyone, even if it meant we couldn’t save him. Still, he was my friend…

Sapphire made a portal to the Lonely Gnome. I can’t say it didn’t give me a little bit of light in a very gloomy mood. Seeing Navra…well, I don’t even know what’s going on there. I think about how a relationship should go and I really don’t know if I could do it. I see how Xavvry is with his dragon lady (and hear how he is with her) and a huge boulder finds its way into my stomach. The idea of putting myself in that sort of situation seems terrifying. But then, when Navra gave me a hug when he saw me. I just felt…safe. It was the first time that someone touched me that I didn’t feel anxious or scared. It was, well, odd. I don’t know how to take it. I never really thought about having feelings for someone because I never really thought I would be capable of it…

When it comes down to it I kissed Navra because I didn’t want to have lived my entire life without kissing someone. Because I wanted to know what it felt like and….I’ve wanted to kiss him for a long time now.

"Dear Diary, Session over 9000"

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